Mixed Emotions

So I'm just thinking alot, I'm so excited to be leaving, but at the same time feeling kind of lonely and a little sad. I miss my Samuel so much, he's my best friend. I've been thinking about the past 5 months and everything that has gone on in between. In the Bible it talks about how if your hand makes you sin you should cut it off (not literally) but what I get from that is that basically if something in your life is making you sin or making you drift from God you should cut it out. My time in high school was the worst four years of my life (so far). While people at senior tea and graduation were crying and saying how much they'd miss each other, I was chunking deuce and sprinting out the door. I was so depressed and I could not wait to get out of there. Fast forward two years later the people I thought would be there for me aren't. The person who I thought I'd be drinking coffee with and watching our kids play together isn't there. It hurts but I'm moving past it, i think its sort of like a relationship, like if they aren't gonna fight to keep you there or to make the friendship work...they were never your true friends to begin with. With me moving to San Antonio in less than a month, I am positive that I will never interact with those people again. I guess it's a good thing, I didn't like the person who I could have become, who they have become. There is more to life than watching the Kardashian's Show or spending $120 dollars on make-up and shopping for clothes every weekend, its sad. Anyway, I just needed to vent and Samuel isn't in his room. Bye for now...oh 22 days until the wedding :)